All the love in the world

“Dumbledore watched her fly away, and as her silvery glow faded he turned back to Snape, and his eyes were full of tears.
"After all this time?"
"Always," said Snape.”
J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.

The world suddenly becomes obsessed with hearts and noticing love at this time of the year. I have a heart on my foot forever. And love is here forever, even if it sometimes goes unnoticed*

Need a good investment choice?

So basically I need to win the lotto or be invested in.
It's not that I'm unhappy, but I'm kinda frozen. My life needs a push.
I had a permanent well paid job back in the day and now I could be traveling the world and paying a mortgage on my own home and buying lovely presents for people. Instead, I'm living at home with my parents with only a small bedroom piled full of my possessions, as my own space. I tried to live in Cork but there's no relevant work there for me and so, in order to be able to work in order to progress my career, I'm home with Mama and Papa and Nana and the two dogs. I appreciate so much having somewhere to live that's warm with food and a washing machine and a nice shower but there's no space for me. Therefore, I have a problem.
I absolutely do not regret giving up my job and swapping money for a happy, creative life. I love learning and I love using my artistic talents and I have met the most wonderful people and become a confident and happy person because of it all. I'm a high achiever and I know where I want to be professionally but it's this in-between bit that's hard to get on track. I know the type of people I need to be surrounded by, I know the environments I have to place myself in and I know the space I need for myself in order to be creative and mentally happy. Hence, I need a studio space and a really nice house and a view and a setting close to civilization so I can have people around me and fun in the evenings when the urge hits me. If I had all that I could do my studies, work when I need to and be an artist the rest of the time. In that way I can become a Visual Arts specialist for primary teaching and teach all the student teachers and advise all the existing teachers and become the successful artist I'm destined to be. I'm a worthwhile investment. When I make it big, everyone with a few bob will be regretting not helping me climb out of the gutter and onto the path of success.
I'll keep trying to win the lotto every now and then when I've gotten enough work to feel I can afford it but if anyone would like to invest in me, that'd be just fab.*

Keep going but know when to move on.

There’s that struggle that happens when you want something. An internal tussle goes on between the part of you that firmly believes that if you want something you mustn’t give up until you get it, no matter what stands in your way, and the part that says what you want is unachievable and you must recognise when you need to give up and set your mind on something that is actually attainable. More simply put, a time comes when you begin to realise that you’re fighting a losing battle and it’s better just to move on, but, the “what if?” part of you keeps saying “just one more try..”. It’s a toughie; the realistic and sensible versus the romantic and hopeful.

Of course, the struggle is different depending on what it is that you want. There are some things in life we can control, like being in the right geographical location. You’d never become an expert snowboarder if you live by the beach in sunny Spain. And for some goals, there are obvious steps we can follow to bring us closer, like gaining a qualification in order to be able to be employed in a particular job. But then there are some things that are beyond our control. We can absolutely influence other people, but unless you are an expert manipulator (which I have no desire to become), at the end of the day it’s what they want and they feel that will result in their actions. These actions may be those that tell you “it’s never going to happen” and “it’s time to give up”. In that case, really and truly, there’s nothing more you can do except be sensible, but, continue to hope and firmly stick to the conviction that what’s for you won’t pass you by.  Sometimes our little human heads and hearts want things that would never be right for us anyway and when we look back we can see just how well things worked out despite what we thought at the time.

In my opinion the best thing to always keep in mind is a ‘no regrets’ policy. In this way you’ll make the most of every second, strive for what you want and move on when it no longer becomes good for you. Take control of what you can and leave the rest to its own devices. That’ll make the struggle less annoying and the results a little sweeter and perhaps a little surprising-in a good way. Life is for living- move forward and make sure you can smile when you look back.*

Do you really mean that?

What? No! That hairstyle makes your ears look tiny!

I was listening to someone speaking yesterday. They were saying how, in times past, words meant so much more. If someone made a promise or said they'd do something, then it would be done- without question. The person who said it meant it and the person who heard it believed it. Sadly this is no longer the case. People say things all the time because it's the simplest response or because it's what they think the listener wants to hear. Spoken words often go no deeper that the sound of which they make. They are spoken to be heard in the fleeting moment and forgotten, not to be imprinted in someone's mind or heart.
As a Romanticist (this being the very opposite to a Realist), I take words at face value and believe them all the time. This is because I love words and I love humans and because I have a never quenching desire to seek the best in people and believe they have kindness and love and interest as their sole motivation. It's an incredibly unrealistic view of the world sadly however, and results in me being frequently disappointed and let down by humanity. It upsets me that the further I go in life, the more I want to hold onto my Romantic view and yet, the more skeptical I have become of people and what they say to me. For so many, words are far too easily spoken. Perhaps some day there will be a reversion and words will have the value they were originally endowed with again; or perhaps I will learn to be less trusting and lose faith in human conviction. I hope the latter never happens though. There's not much hope left if one gives up on human goodness*

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